Borededness

painting

I shared an in-progress shot of this painting a couple of weeks ago, and I wasn’t happy with how it was turning out. I thought I should probably post the finished piece. I’m happy to say that I do like it now that it is done. Andrea of Little Fawn Photography recently posted the gifts she gave to her brides, and it was so fun seeing my paintings in with all that goodness. I’m glad to be a part of such a thoughtful gift set.

Now onto the seemingly non-related blog title.

So it turns out that “not blogging”, while at first seemed like such a relief, is actually quite boring. While before I would think to myself “wouldn’t it be nice if I weren’t constantly thinking about my blog?” Now I just think to myself “I am so bored…” I never realized how much of a creative outlet writing here has become in my life. And having those creative outlets is extremely important to my mental well-being. It keeps the sadness in my brain down to a manageable level. And when I’m happier, I’m a better person. So I suppose by that logic, blogging makes me a better person? That just seems silly. But I’ve got to admit, it IS good for stress relief.

I don’t have time to be a legit “blogger”. I am so very very tired all the time. And honestly, some days it takes all of my energy to just enjoy being a mom in the short hours between dinner and bedtime that I get to be with my kids. I haven’t even stepped into my art room other than to grab scissors in… a very long time. I miss spending time in there. I just don’t have time to be as creative as I’d like. So I guess the point I’m trying to make is, I need to blog. For my own sanity if for nothing else. I don’t have a lot of creative outlets these days, so I need to hang on to the ones I do have.

I would LOVE to spend my days crafting up all sorts of fun things, teaching my kids how to create beauty around them, and serving people with my talents. Someday maybe I will. That day is certainly not today. Today, paying our mortgage and having health insurance is more important.

Goodness that sounds so depressing!!! I need to end this on a happier note… I had a fun lunch date today with a good friend, my lilacs bushes are SO close to blooming, I’m painting polka dots all over my kitchen walls, and we have plans to play dorky board games with my sister-in-law this weekend. Also, I am seriously loving my new site design. Those crazy bold triangles make me smile. Life is good.

2 thoughts on “Borededness

  1. I hate paying my mortgage! And healthy insurance!

    Okay… I am happy I have health insurance and that I can afford to pay my mortgage… but it’s so boring and I want to be a bazillionaire and run my own crazy private library.

    I’m just rambling… but I am glad you are going to blog a bit again!

    • Exactly! I’m super grateful that I can pay those things. But seriously, sometimes I just want to say forget that and paint giant murals all over the walls of your awesome private library. We’d be unstoppable.

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